Homesickness

Even in times where I've been having so much fun, I still get homesick every now and then. It almost seems like a pattern of around every 2 weeks, I'll get homesick. It's not just that I miss home, it's that I'm tired of travelling constantly, I miss the ease of just being at home and not having to worry about where you're going and where you need to be. Don't get me wrong; I may be homesick but that doesn't mean I want to come home yet. It's a very strange feeling because I'm actually having fun and there's still so much I want to do on this trip, but still the feeling of wanting to go home comes up.

For me, homesickness doesn't only mean missing home. It's also a social exhaustion, as meeting new people or being with people 24/7 is very intense and I forget to take breaks because I enjoy it.

But even still, when I get homesick I just want to recoil, be in my own energy and not socialise or do anything new. That seems very unlike me, but I think I travel in a very all-or-nothing way; I'm either on top of the world, excited to be doing everything at once, or wanting to spend days on my own meeting no one and doing nothing. And that's ok, that's just how it works sometimes!

I'm used to going home around every 2 or 3 weeks so I think that's why it happens that often. Even though I've recognised this pattern I still don't really know what to do with the feeling! Is it best to stay in and be by myself to get some rest, or is it best to get out there and force myself to do things? I'm still not sure, but all I know is that feeling will soon pass! Generally I just like to go with how I feel at the time and I think I'm getting better at learning to go with the flow.

It's difficult at times but there's still so much I want to do out here so I won't be going home any time soon.

Shepp x