I Miss Home

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I've come to realise I am in fact, very homesick.
I may even go as far as to say if it weren't for covid, I'd be leaving Australia rather soon.
My heart is ready to come home.

Ever since Christmas, being my first one away from home and family and feeling very un-Christmassy, I've felt somewhat unsettled. It's hard to explain but it's almost as if my inner peace has been shaken.

And as much as all this hurts, I'm still really enjoying life. Life in Byron is so chilled and beautiful, and I'm having lots of fun.
Visiting Sydney this weekend was so much fun, and so incredible to see my amazing mates who I missed so much.
Saying that, it's also shown me that this feeling of homesickness is deeper than normal. Usually the best cure for it is distracting yourself and surrounding yourself with good people, yet I still feel this way.

It's a real shame to be torn between choosing people or a place. Byron is my favourite place right now and it's where I need to be, yet I also would love to be with my lovely friends in Sydney. But I can't live in Sydney, it's not for me.
It's just a shame Sydney and Byron aren't closer, otherwise I'd visit them every weekend!

And on that note, if I could I'd obviously visit home on the weekends too! There's nothing more I'd love than tea and snacks on the sofa with my family and a cuddle with the dog.

For now, it's all a bit intense so I'm just playing it by ear. I will stay in Byron some time longer to earn more money before moving on and travelling more, and I'll see where the wind takes me. And I've got a lot more travelling and a bucket list as long as my arm before I eventually leave Australia.
I love it here, and I know I'll look back on these times in my life very fondly so I'm appreciating everything I have while I have it.

And always remembering how lucky I am to have something to miss so much.

Shepp x

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